I am blessed

This week has been pretty stressful. Looking for a place to live thousands of miles away is a crazy idea, but it's the only one we can do right now. We got our application in on this house that I loved, were the first ones to do everything (thanks Pam and Eric) and then the guy picks someone else for the house. I loved the house and was so excited, but now back to the drawing board. Due to our crazy circumstances with James leaving in a month and us being apart for 1.5 months life just seems to get crazier and crazier. Then I decide to take on all these projects and B hasn't been sleeping well at all this week due to a cold and other things...so I'm exhausted on top of all that.

This morning as I lay in bed and Brady is laying next to me and is playing the piano on my phone (I don't have an iphone, but no wonder people get these new kinds of phones...they are amazing and so handy for kids). I realized how blessed I am. Brady was pretty sick last night and I had to teach at Relief Society I had two wonderful friends help me out. His other mother ;) held him and cared for him and then my other friend who is a doctor totally did a check up on him and told me what I needed to do for him. I came home and told James how grateful I was for all that help. Then on top of that friends who are asking me to come stay with them when J leaves so I won't have to live by myself and I will have someone helping with B when I have to go back to a normal work schedule. I lay in bed this morning realizing how great of friends I have and how lucky and blessed I am to have this group of fabulous friends around me, supporting me, lending a hand, showering me with love...I feel blessed and grateful for this group of friends here and all they have done for me in my time of need. I know why we ended up here for 2 years and I'm glad we did. It's making my stressful day of a long to-do list, going on just a few hours of sleep, being at work more bareable.

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!

Thinking about this the last few days:

I'm convinced that someone will always hate you,

and that it shouldn't really matter.

I'm convinced that for every 100-200 people who love you,

there is at least 1 who just won't.

Maybe they just don't understand you.

Maybe they just don't believe in, or are threatened by,

the things you represent.

Maybe they are simply misguided.

Maybe they are just mean.

or selfish.

or just loudmouthed and insensitive.

Whatever it is . . . it really doesn't matter.

Someone always will.

misunderstand you.

neglect to appreciate your efforts.

have an opinion about the way you cho0se to live.

feel threatened by the things you represent.

or just plain HATE you

for one inexplicable reason or another.

But again, it doesn't really matter.

it really doesn't.

the thing I'm baffled by is this. . .

WHY do we (myself included) focus all our time and energy on the

ONE person that is giving us grief?

Why not the HUNDRED who love, support, celebrate and sustain us?

I'm convinced that someone will always hate you,

and that it shouldn't really matter.

_________________________

and in case you haven't heard it a while,

I want you to know. . .

I love you.

I think you're wonderful.

I appreciate your efforts.

I am cheering you on.

I am your number 1 fan.

I think you can, I think you can,

I.think.you.can.

In fact,

I know you will.

mwa!

xx,

me

{thanks nat!}

This is me:

I was on my friends blog (click here) she has the funniest blog! She is such a great writer! She talked about this article (click here) and how our blog life and real life don't match up always. How everything on a blog is perfect, but let's be honest...real life isn't always perfect. I sometimes have to remember this as I read people's blogs and am amazed by their perfect lifes and feel myself get slightly jealous of them and how put together they always seem to be. Sometimes I go home comparing myself to them, but then realize...it's blog life, they didn't put the bad things on there.
So the real me: i have a huge pile of laundry on my couch that is waiting to be folded; i have tons of dishes in my sink; my bed isn't made; I'm always stressed about money; right now trying to find a house in Louisville in our budget is killing me cause we need it in 1.5 months; I'm trying to lose some extra weight to fit into jeans that I wore when James I were dating 4 years ago...just 10 pounds, but I hate working out; sometimes I don't make dinner cause I just don't feel like it; sometimes my husband and I argue; i have tons of scrapbooking that is half done and is like 3 years old and I'm sure my fridge needs to be cleaned out. There ya have it! That is me, all out there for all the world to see!

Happy Mothers Day

I realize this is late (I was in Cali soaking up the sun), but still a Happy Mothers day. I have these three great women in my life who I adore tremendously and am so grateful for their example to me of how to be a great mom.
I am grateful for my own mom always working so hard, being the example and taking us to church every week and showing us how important the gospel is in our lives and sharing her testimony with us.
I am grateful to my grandma who became a member in her early married years without that we wouldn't be members. Who has served 3 mission with my grandpa, who has taught me how to crochet, make great food and is very diligent in her family history!
I am grateful to my mother in law who has included me in the family and makes me feel like a family member. Who is the greatest hostest and makes the best foods. Who always is hillarious and can make you laugh so hard. Who works so hard in her church callings and loves unconditionally.
I am grateful to my many many aunts, friends and the rest of the women in my family who are also great mothers! I have learned a lot from each one of you and am grateful for you who have helped me become the mom that I am! Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

I haven't really said

Although it was a horrible weekend. Conference was fabulous. Fabulous, fabulous fabulous! October 09 Conference didn't feel like very much pertained to me (maybe I wasn't really paying attention), but this one...even though I didn't watch all due to taking naps because I was exhausted from staying up all night with B, the sessions and speakers that I did hear...I felt the spirit speak so strongly to me and I can't wait for the ensign to come out and re-read all those talks.
Also I went to natalies blog...and watched this video. I'm going to go home and just hug and kiss and kiss little B some more. If you watch, be prepared with tissues, lots and lots of them. I'm grateful for Easter, for Jesus atonement, for what he has done for us. My cousin talked on it at her missionary farewell two weeks ago. Ill be honest, I haven't felt the spirit in awhile, but when my cousin taked on the Atonement, bam, there it was, there was the spirit that I feel like I have been missing lately. It reminded me how grateful I am in my own life for a kind of re-birth, a starting over, a cleansing. Without that I wouldn't have the wonderful husband I have now, the temple marriage, being sealed to family. So this easter was a good one for me in the spiritual aspect!
Reflecting on the video. Man oh man. I'm sad for what happened to Natalie and Richie, but grateful that it happened in Laie, HI. For those who have never lived there, they will never understand. You have a church college of 3,000 max students. A very small town, it really is one gigantic family. Plus with all the kids there so very far from their families, we all gang together to become one big family. PLUS there is something about the hawaiian/samoan/tongan culture which just brings something very special to add to that. I miss that. Daily, I miss that. So to have so many people that are sooo incredibly caring/so over the top loving/ so helpful, it's a great place to be when times are hard I think (personal opinion).
But Natalie, thanks for the video and the post, to help me reflect on this weekend and realize what was important about it, not the fact that we didn't get great pics, that B didn't do a easter egg hunt, etc. Thanks for helping me to remember what Jesus did for us, how important the savior is in my life, how great our Prophet and his apostles are and what great and amazing things they do for us. Thank you, thank you, thank you!